Update

It’s been a while since I have updated my blog. My life has been crazy!

I was doing a dance performance for diwali- short, sweet and simple (jai ho, twist and daga laga remixed) and so I spent an entire week in downtown San Francisco, work from 8-5, school and assignments/taking care of health from 6-10 an dance practice from 10-12. It was crazy, but the event turned out well, dance, dinner and just socializing. Saturday, we had a party at the house I live, I wore a saree, and again dinner, diwali pooja, fireworks and just relaxed. I have a had a lot more time to myself in last week because I wasn’t attending class, took almost 2 days of work and had finished most of hw, but my health is not better. This week I have been in so much pain, all week has been crazy, I went to hospital few times and just like before, no cure for my pain. Now my stomach and shoulders are also hurting like hell. I can’t sit- I wish all this pain would just go away. My life is much away from stressful people and environment, why am I still getting this pain and mental loss of hope.

I sleep a lot, but my body still feels tired, and I don’t have an appetite for food, and if I eat I either get full really fast or keep getting the urge to throw up.

I just want my health to get better. I am getting rid of everything related to stressful past, changing my life style, health habits, and everything so much and constructing new goals and opportunities for better future. I wish my body would just support me. I give it so much rest, food and sleep and still it doesn’t allow me to just sit comfortably and work. Before my stomach was my sole enemy, now shoulders and back have also become my enemy.

Let me revisit my goals, life and plans-

1. Book proposal- I want to publish a book, almost all my content is ready, I need to figure out copyright laws for photograph and find a list of publishers for sending in manuscript.

a. Date: December 31, 2009

b. Deliverable: organize, list of publishers and manuscript

2. Certificate CCNA-

a. Date: December 31, 2009

b. Deliverables: 1 chapter each week will get me through all chapters by mid December

3. Dance

a. Commitment to world dance and ballet (Monday and Wednesday)

b. Fusion team?

4. Work and School

a. Commitment to school and work

b. Tutor

5. Overall

a. Simplify/minimize everything (delete and get rid of unnecessary things)

b. Organize

c. Eat and sleep well

d. Work hard, play hard

e. Beauty and health

Once again Honey, you are living in the city you always desired to live in, you have an outstanding job with many opportunities and you are doing a Master’s in Graphic Design (what you always wanted to do)- enjoy it all. Better your health and succeed with these opportunities you have. Make best out of it and move on to better future. You have forgotten most of your past, forget about recent Boise past too, stop caring about immature, selfish, useless and careless people and move on with your life and live for yourself. Keep up with your work hard, play hard motto and forget about the rest of the world.